augh i got this mad
contact high panic attack from sitting at a table with people who were smoking weed last night and i’ve gotten like a few panic attacks since then and I’ve been panic free for a few months now
I know it was legit because usually I can stop the “placebo” attacks but this one was real
the new york skyline was breathing for a bit
augh i got this mad
Ugh I just had a two minute panic attack, still kinda going on
Like one of those panic attacks where I feel like I smoked weed
Yeah its still going on
What the fuck
So I woke up late, because well, it’s the weekend. Which means I slept a lot. Which means I feel like shit, and I’m emotional, and I’m derealizaed, and my anxiety is up, and I have all of the time in the world to think and scare myself. I took 3/4 of a 0.5 mg Ativan instead of the usual half Ativan… I’m just so goddamn out of it and shitty feeling, I am going to sit in bed on this beautiful day and eat food and watch The Land Before Time I and bawl my eyes out some more, becaue I would always sob to this movie when I was little.
My anxiety has taken a whole new level. I can’t even tell if I “am”, and although I am not experiencing DP/DR, I do not feel comfortable. I’ve also been getting physical symptoms now. This thing is taking over my entire body now, instead of just messing with my head. I’m getting nausea, flushing, dizziness, and headaches. But when I have the feelings I just think my body is turning inside out or I’m about to die…
I feel a “I’m bet I’m going to start to hear voices I should just kill myself” panic attack coming on
YAAAY anxiety disorders!!!!!!!
fucking losing it again.
I was peeing, and then all of a sudden I felt like I was in a dream, and I was like, “shit, am I actually in a bathroom peeing? or am I in the cafeteria or in the hallway? OH SHIT!” And then more panicking, and I walk out of the bathroom towards the dining hall, and I just looked down because I thought if I looked at people, they were going to start to morph in some way, like their eyes would get big or they would stretch out, just weird things with my field of vision. So yeah and I was pretty sure I was going psychotic